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maniasdoor

Published: Mar 11, 2009

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_{polaroids of you collect
dust and teardrops in
my dresser drawers,
remnants of the boy
you used to be.
[you never did what
you were told.]

damp cotton candy
clouds hover over
the hills where we
used to snort cocaine
and fashion music notes
out of grass blades,
throwing them into
the summer air.
[drowning our misery
and falling into an
artificial bliss now lost.]

the hearts I drew
on your ribcage in
indelible ink are
now as meaningless as
the leaves under my feet
in this tranquil cemetery.
I'll sit here for hours
with you until the stars
bring you back to life and
tell me it was all a lie.
[you were all
I had.]}

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Sorry about how blatantly depressing this is.
Don't critique it.

And please keep in mind that this in no way relates to my life.
It's just.... bleh.

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XxLonesomeDovexX

Mar 29, 2009

You inspire me

you make me want to be better at writeing, your work drives me to look deep within myself to try to find the words I've never writen and make something from them.
You are truly one of my favorite poets, you are a skilled writer.

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